U-Turn

How I wish my life could U-turn it back. The things I've missed and I didn't appreciate it during that time. I just wasted it and take it easy. Now I'm feeling regret. Frankly speaking, I'm tired of everything and fed up of my life I'm experiencing these few months. Supposingly a new year should have a new beginning and why I didn't have at all? Sometimes I seriously blame myself why am I not murture and always did the same mistake over and over again. Terry, it's time to change and every single thing you exeprienced will make you grow STRONGER. Is it true?

How are you out there? Tonight I don't know why suddenly I read back your blog that dated back the day when we broke up. I try my best to understand every single words you wrote in Chinese. I know I did hurt you so much and I'm really sorry about it. I know sorry doesn't cure your scar.

Since I met you few months back, I want to tell you how much I missed you and I still have feeling towards you. But I don't have the guts to tell you. I thought before, if I do tell you about it, you will stop talking to me and ignore me just like that. I don't want this to happen between us. I know some of my friends like to said that I think too much no matter on what. What to do? Do I need to stop think alot? I'm sorry I can't!!!! Even I emailed you before and I told you how I felt. I do hope you understand. Whenever I sleep, I do think of you. Even last Saturday while watching horror movie I hope you're beside me. I do like the way you always hold on my sleeves while watching horror films. Last month, I'm happy that I could help you to celebrate an early birthday for you. During that day, I thought you're available the whole day so that I can spend more time with you because we didn't do that for so long. I planned to bring you to taste the Apartment food but you always pick the same old Kim Gary. But of cause, I do respect your decision and as long as I can spend a little time with you. Do you like the present I gave you? I hope you do love it. Actually the kiss on the cheek is not just a wishing but actually I do want to give you a kiss every time I see you. I even sometimes think of stupid thing. Giving you a kiss in the morning then prepare a breakfast before both of us go to work.

You told me you are moving here. I tried to give you a hand but you never reply me at all. Are you avoiding me? I hope you don't ignore me k? I seriously wait to be with you. After the day we broke off, I still missed you. I know I did mentioned to you how Princess Diana's suffered the thing we experienced it. We knew each other just a short while but every single moment I be with you, I do appreciate it. Your little smile that always cheer me up. I still remember the message in Friendster that we send to each other was very cute and I still keep it. Besides that, when you are at the club, your eyes is like trying to ask me to approach you and I did it. At your home, while you are watching your drama, I feel like hug you from behind and just give you a little kiss on your cheek. When can this happen again?

I love you. Good Night.